Here comes the Rain again...

I used to Love the Rain... it made me feel alive, because it was proof that Nature is alive , and I am part of Nature { (un)fortulately }

Yet, tonight it rained { it rained hard... with winds, and thunderclaps, all these things that used to excite me...} and it didn't feel like it used to ...

I felt no life in me... no power... no excitement... no awe... Why?

Because I have let my heart open... Myself is not enough for me anymore... I need someone to channel my feelings to... I have become soft... needy...

I have gotten so used  to relationships... that I need one right now, in order to feel my feelings...

I have become a cripple  that  can't walk without his cane...
I have become a part that needs to become a whole...

My Self is not enough to cover my needs anymore... 

That's why I need the Rain... to remind my of my Old Self...

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uy115Hbm9DU