I used to Love the Rain... it made me feel alive, because it was proof that Nature is alive , and I am part of Nature { (un)fortulately }
Yet, tonight it rained { it rained hard... with winds, and thunderclaps, all these things that used to excite me...} and it didn't feel like it used to ...
I felt no life in me... no power... no excitement... no awe... Why?
Because I have let my heart open... Myself is not enough for me anymore... I need someone to channel my feelings to... I have become soft... needy...
I have gotten so used to relationships... that I need one right now, in order to feel my feelings...
I have become a cripple that can't walk without his cane...
I have become a part that needs to become a whole...
My Self is not enough to cover my needs anymore...
That's why I need the Rain... to remind my of my Old Self...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uy115Hbm9DU
